Relapse

Hey,

So I've definitely fallen back into relapse territory. I watch that stupid Jersey Shore show now because I know you're watching it too, and it oddly makes me feel a little close to you again, even though I haven't seen your face in 16 days, or heard your voice in 14.

Your girl made me a little misty-eyed yesterday after she did the whole telephone-break-up. Haha. I'm not as dramatic as her and I would never burn anything that reminds me of you.

You don't know how hard it is for me to not get in my truck and drive down to Fords, and just wait for you. I'd probably just see you and turn back around. I couldn't handle it. My heart couldn't.

I hate this so much. Why am I so fucking weak? Relapse.

-- L