Bathing in Patheity

Hey,

I'm having second thoughts about going to Feathers for Michael's birthday. I know he said Jimmy isn't going but what if he shows up? I wouldn't be able to face him knowing his boyfriend cheated on him with me. Not only that, but you were supposed to be there with me. If I witness Michael and Jimmy, the happy couple, together on his birthday, in the same setting that cemented our demise, how am I going to react?

Why couldn't you wait until after our birthdays to dump me at least? Ugh, listen to myself. I'm bathing in patheity. I'm afraid to relapse, that's why I'm glad I had this interview today. It went well I think. I wish I could tell you all about it in person.

The office was pretty nice. It was about a 15-minute drive to Ridgefield Park. The HR coordinator I dealt with, her name was Yuhan, she was Hispanic but I'm not sure from what country. She was a sweetheart.

She started me off with a 6-page test that covered spelling, grammar, math and other stuff related to the job I'm applying for. I was so intimidated at first because she was just zipping through as she explained it to me, but once I started taking it I knew I was going to nail it. And according to her, I did. After the test, she interviewed me one-on-one and that went well too. I figured I nailed that part as well because she proceeded to send me to another lady (can't remember her name) to take a typing/data entry test.

Oh, those tests get more and more fun. The old lady was floored when she saw how quickly I finished. That keyboard didn't stand a chance! My scores were 102 WPM (99% accuracy, ugh, since when?!) for the alpha, and 99 WPM (100% accuracy) for alpha-numeric. You know this!!

So now I'm just waiting to hear if I got the job. It'll only last me until December if I do get hired, but at least it'll give me some time to look for other work and distract myself more from thinking of you.

I ordered a Spanish-language 30-channel package on DirecTV today. It has channels from both my countries, Peru and Puerto Rico, which I'm pretty excited about. I love immersing myself in my cultures.

I miss you, kiddo. Lately more than ever. Hope you're doing okay. I'm struggling, but I'll be just fine. Promise.

-- L